there are people in my life that are significant. they make me who i am. lately i find that these people have been getting on my nerves. i find some becoming distant. i feel inadequate. i feel like i've done everything wrong.
i feel like i don't do anything fun anymore. i feel like i have nobody to talk to. i feel that when i do talk to people, they don't want to listen. i feel like i've made bad decisions. i feel like i always mess things up.
i have a tendency to not think before i speak. that gets me in trouble. sometimes the things i say cause problems.
i like when the people i love are happy. when they're not, i don't know what to do. some don't like to be cheered up and when this happens i feel like a fool.
when i'm upset i test people. it's not a conscious thing, it's just what happens. no matter how many nice things they say, i turn it into a negative. i want to see how hard they try. not many people last long.
i know that's wrong, but i still do it. my lows are low. but when the new day comes, i start out fresh.
what do you do when you feel as if someone's sadness and disappointment is your fault?
i'm at this point. is a breakup in the future?
when you've surrounded yourself with someone for this long they become a part of you.
but the last thing i want is to hold someone from their dreams. if it's meant to be it will be, right?
hope so.
luck is all i have.
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